Stupid motherfucker!! Well, it's already past maghrib and am allowed to curse without bataling my puasa. I'm expressing my anger! So back to the subject. This stupid old fucker was staring at me in the bus throughout the journey!!! He's not really old, he's just middle-aged. And he's not retarded or blind! Well, he's mentally sick in his mind! So he was at the same bus stop I was in and I saw him staring at me. At first I was like, "Ok, freaky person..." then the bus came and it was quite empty. And who came sitting right in front of me? Yes, that idiot!! And he made it seem like as if he's not staring at me. He pretends to see things from the window and when the bus passes it he would look behind and I caught him staring at me!!!! I was so terrified to move because he might sit next to me or something! Then he was looking at me when he alighted and I felt totally dirty and used, like as if I was molested or something. Then I thought to myself, "I hope he goes to Geylang and hire a dumpy lesbian butch prostitute."
So on to the positive! Well, not really. Anyway, my brother bought the 50 Cent album "Curtis" and when I saw it, I said, "What is that doing in my house?" Ugh! Yucks! I hate 50 Cent! I hate his song AYO Technology! I hate how all his videos contain half-naked strippers! I hate how he's like, "Yo! Everybody around me sucks!" And I read somewhere that Kanye West and 50 Cent are feuding because they're releasing albums on the same date and 50 Cent commented that Kanye West sucks and all. And then he said that if Kanye West outsells him, he's going to retire from the music industry. Then he immediately withdrew the statement. What an asshole.
Anyway, my second brother has passed his motor test. So I am the only one in the family that is not allowed to operate a vehicle. I don't know if I want a motor or car license, or both. I am so scared that I might be a bad driver and crash like Lindsay Lohan or something. Seriously! When I play GTA, I would accidentally crash into idiot drivers who turn from the wrong lane and I would also usually kill a couple of pedestrians. And I'm scared to ride a motor. Even though it's like a bicycle, I'm so scared that I might topple over and the hot metal exhaust might press on me and I would die of third-degree burns. And I'm scared that the motor might suddenly explode for some unknown reason.
Anyway, my mother was talking to me about how life was like 20 years ago. And she told me about my relatives and stuff. And all I have to say is that if somebody were to make a movie out of that, they would win an Oscar for Best Original Screenplay. Seriously, it makes those scriptwriters who write those crappy Indonesian dramas lower their heads in shame. It's all really crazy actually! Well, before I was born, my parents lived with my dad's mother, twin siblings and my dad's mum's sister (aka my grandaunt). So in summary, my grandma didn't like my mum at all. She would talk about my mum on the phone and when my mum came back from work, she would "kelang-kabut". My grandma didn't really like my brothers! Yes I know! Shocker! She wouldn't take care of my brothers so they were sent to be taken after by an upstairs neighbour. My grandma would kind of bitch about my mother to one of my neighbours who would tell the upstairs neighbour who would tell my mum. And wow! My mother really got it bad! Then when everybody (as in the relatives) moved out, my grandaunt was badmouthing my parents and stuff happened between my dad and his cousins that resulted to catastrophic explosions!
And then my mother said something that opened my eyes. She said that grandparents are supposed to pamper their grandchildren since they were young until their old and my mother said that she only grew fond of us when we were going through the teenager years. Yeah, way to make us love you during the period when we're all filled with hatred towards every single living organism in this world. I realised no wonder I prefered my maternal grandma than my paternal grandma. Well, my maternal grandma has already passed and I cried like a crazy psycho. I don't know if I'll cry.
Well, there's still drama going on with my relatives. Urgh! It's actually really really tiring actually! And it's really stupid because they pretend to like one another. If you need a reference, it's kind of like the relationship between Raymond's mum and Raymond's wife in Everybody Loves Raymond. Everytime I watch that show, I feel like as if one of my relatives is sending scripts to that show.