My Crazy Dreams - Drive-By, Day 6, 7

Anyway, as you may know, I have wacky dreams. Last night was no exception. You know how it's too crazy that it's a dream? But then when you're in the dream, you think that it is happening in reality? Just saying.

Anyway, I dreamt that I was walking along this ghetto avenue with... you guessed it, Sharon Stone! She was wearing the dress she wore on Basic Instinct. Just like Beyonce in the "Ring The Alarm" video. Yah... Riiight... Anyway, some car was passing by and apparently it was a rival gang. So, there was a turf war and gangsters from the car were shooting randomly. Sharon dove down. I dove down and hid behind her. Then, after a couple of shots and the car was out of sight, I was like, "Phew, thank goodness they didn't kill us!" But then I found out that Sharon died! Boo hoo! Then, I remember going to the rival gang HQ and there was this hawker centre which looked like the one in Changi Hospital. Can you believe this?

I'm in love with Ring The Alarm!

My Photoshoot - Day 4, 5

Well, yesterday was one busy day. Anyway, I have become nocturnal. No, that's quite wrong. I have become insomnic. I only sleep for a couple of hours a day. That's really bad, I tell you. So yesterday woke up and couldn't move my neck entirely. I was suffering from a bad case of salah bantal also known as a sprained neck. Cried for a moment, then forced myself to get up.

So, I decided that I'll go to the studio a little later, like fashionably late or something. Anyway, tried doing a couple of remedies like putting ice on my neck. Didn't work. Then, I tried lying down. It was a really bad idea I tell you, because it only got worse. When I stood up again, it even hurts when my head is straight.

The journey to the studio opposite Roxy Square was crazy. It seemed like I was wearing an invisible neck brace. And I had to carry my radio. Luckily, I survived the journey. Reached the studio and it was so cool! The owner of the studio was at his computer and he didn't scold us even though we made a lot of noise.

From 1 to 6, we were at the studio. Then after that took 10 to Esplanade to take more pictures. Did the 4R Teacher's Day dance in front of a live audience (consisting of 2 tourists). I think they were impressed. Ya. Took more pictures. Broke fast with Minute Maid. Then after that went to Marina Square. Ate at food court. Made a ruckus. Went to the giant steps. Did a boy/girl gangster movie. Haha! MRT to home.

Oh and when I reached Pasir Ris, I went to 7-11 to buy Super Huge Gulp. When I went to the counter with my Super Huge Gulp, there was a six-pack of Tiger Beer. The lady then asked, "This one also together ah?" And I said, "NO!". Haha. Do I look 21 to you?

And during the whole day, my pants were loose! I hope nobody saw anything inappropiate. I think somebody did. They should've told me you know. Now I know how Janet Jackson feels.

My Preliminary Post - A Maths P2, Day 3

A Maths P2
I'm not going to talk about it. It was super hard I tell you!

Anyway, after the exam we had a sexuality education class. So we went to the classroom and there was this pretty Caucasian woman working for Standard Charted Bank who volunteered to give a talk about AIDS! This I will never forget. Anyway, she looks like Princess Diana. Ya. After the talk, had a class discussion and apparently, I'm supposed to bring a broom and a mop to the studio for the photoshoot and around the island. Shit. I'm gonna look like I'm gonna sign up at the maid agency.

Day 3! 27 more days! Yay! Anyway, guess today's hunger tolerance is better than yesterday. Perhaps it's because there's no drilling.

BTW you're supposed to click on the picture on the right to watch the MVOTW (Music Video Of The Week). Yay!

Oh and Hady won! My mother was totally getting emotional and crying! I wanted to switch channels to watch The Amazing Race but then she scolded me and said, "Hakim? Can't you see that I'm crying?!" Haha, weird. She must be thinking that Hady's her long lost son or something.

My Preliminary Post - E Maths P2, Day 2

E Maths P2
E Maths was fine. My only problem was that in the beginning, I thought that I had sufficient time so I just did my work slowly, but then had to scurry during the last minutes. Yay!

2nd day of fasting and I'm already on the verge of death! Arrrgh! OMG my whole block is being renovated and they're drilling for goodness sake! I have a headache and I couldn't sleep! I couldn't revise through A Maths! I couldn't do anything! I only watched TV.

I think my headache was also contributed by the Danity Kane song, Showstopper! Yes! I am listening to it and it is stuck in my head. It's so annoying yet it's nice!

Songs that people do not know but are very nice!

1. Showstopper - Danity Kane
2. Crazy - Gnarls Barkley
3. Ring The Alarm - Beyonce
4. London Bridge - Fergie
5. Too Little Too Late - Jojo
6. Maneater - Nelly Furtado

Seriously, I can't sing these songs in public because everybody will think I'm crazy!

3 more hours! Just 3! I need to try to sleep!

My First Day - Day 1

YAY!!!! New blog! I spent the whole night last night to do this blog template. Actually, I just took this "We Belong Together" template and modified the pictures! Yay! Sorry, it's under construction.

Spread the word!

First day of fasting! I shall not curse! Instead, I'll just say "darn!". Ya.

3 more hours and I can eat!

Ooh! Singapore Idol tonight! I seriously do not know who will win. I'm not going to waste my money anymore.

My Emancipation

Yay! New blog! Actually not new, it's just the blog address that's new.

Anyway, Destroyed Soul sounds so depressing, and I'm in no mood to be depressed! I shall stay happy for as long as I live. Cover up my frown with laughter. But seriously, that was kind of embarrassing honestly.

Yay! I'm making my own blog template! Yay!

Bye, peeps! I wanna watch Powerpuff Girls.

My Preliminary Post - Physics

Physics
[moans like a psycho]
OMG this is the worst paper ever! I hate Physics! I will never ever study Physics in JC! I will never ever teach Physics, EVER! I don't understand a single thing so I have to memorise everything!! I don't have a brilliant memory, so I forgot a couple of formulae.

OMG and in addition, today was the most horriblest day in weeks. I have somehow suddenly fallen into a black hole. Ya, OK, I'm kind of emoing and my vibrant blog template is contradictory, and that is why I'm going to change my blog template! Yay! Well, it's not really a celebratory "Yay!". It's kind of like "yay".

What's the reason for this animosity?! Urgh! I seriously do not know why I'm depressed. What the fuck lah! Just let me die!

Ok, try to stay happy! :D. Anyway, this morning I just discovered something! No, I didn't find a cure for cancer. I found out that in actual fact I'm the one in the letter! AHHHHHH!!!

Ok, you won't get it. It's just those things that will trigger my memory when I grow old and look at the archives.

KLAU CUY FOH

My Crazy Dreams - Journey To Africa

Oh before I log off, I had a totally weird dream last night. Here it is...

So, last night, I dreamt that the whole of 4R was studying in this private boarding school in South Africa! Yes, believe it or not! And guess who was Mr Cuthbert? NELSON MANDELA!!! It gets weirder. Since it's a private boarding school and we wear blazers the whole time, there's this swimming pool and 4R was sitting on the canteen and the kindergarten kids were having swimming lessons. And guess who the swimming instructor was? CHARLIZE THERON! Then I woke up and I was like, WTH?. Seriously! OMG that's so freaky! BTW if you're dumb and stupid and live under a rock, she's South African.

Speaking of Africa, have you been watching ANTM? American Tops Model?! Yay!

Speaking of ANTM, the whole class is having this photoshoot for a spread in the Temasekian. Yay!

Ok, my mother just came into the room and I spoke to her like I was Jamie Foxx in Golddigger. OMG! That's so embarrassing.

Ok, I'm digressing.

My Preliminary Post - Chemistry + A Maths P1

Chemistry
Ok, I seriously forgot how I did for my Chem. It's been a very very long time (2 days ago). I think I might have short-term memory loss.

A Maths P1
Let's see... Umm... I couldn't finish and I calculated and would like to bid farewell to A1. Goodbye. Goodbye, first-3-months-of-prelims.

I would like to have a job during the 3 months. No way am I going to work at a fast-food outlet. That's so cliche. Sorry I couldn't write the stroke above the 'e' in 'cliche'. I'm not French. Anyway, I think I would like to be a stand-up comedian like Ellen DeGeneres! Yay! I've been watching her shows, well actually only the monologue. I just tape the rest. OMG her stand-up comedy is so fucking funny! I wanna be funny! Ok, that's so desperate.

So, today I overslept (again). Woke up at 6.15 and my mother didn't even bother to wake me up. She gave me money for compensation instead, which is used to pay the taxi uncle, but just before you think it's an uncle, it's an AUNTIE!!! YES!!! No lah, no need to panick. The taxi driver's just a woman.

Oh and I heard from the news that the IMF peeps were complaining that they had to pay for wireless broadband in their hotel rooms, as compared to Japan, which they get for free. Then, they said that Singapore is contradictory because it's "the island that never sleeps" yet the MRT doesn't operate 24/7. Hahaha! So, foreigners can complain and we can't? Don't give me this kind of shit! Ok, I shall stop writing before I get sued or something.

And I always forget to mention that my brother went to NS on Sept 11 (no pun intended). He just came back today. Will blog more during the weekends. Physics tomorrow! I have to get A for Physics!

My whole family thinks that I'm coping very well with my studies. I hate being the smartest of the family. Sometimes I wish I was the stupid one, so that people don't make high expectations

I Don't Need A Man - Pussycat Dolls

I see you looking at me
Like I got something for you
And the way that you stare
Don't you dare
'Cause I'm not about to
Just give it on up to you
'Cause there are some things I won't do
And I'm not afraid to tell you
I don't ever want to leave you confused

[Bridge]
The more you try
The less I buy it
And I don't have to think it through
You know if I'm into you

[Chorus]
I don't need a man to make it happen
I get off being free
I don't need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing
I don't need a ring around my finger
To make me feel complete
So let me break it down
I can get off when you ain't around
Oh!

You know I got my own life
And I bought everything that's in it
So if you want to be with me
It ain't all about the bling you bringing
I want a love that's for real
And without that then no deal
And baby I don't need a hand
If it only wants to grab one thing

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go

I don't need a
I don't need a man, I don't
I don't need a man
I'll get me through
'Cause I know I'm fine
I feel brand new

I don't need a
I don't need a man, I don't
I don't need a man
I'll make it through
'Cause I know I'm fine
Without you!

[Chorus]

I don't need a man (I'm over you)
I don't need a man (I'm over you)
I don't need a man
(I'm without you)
(I'm over you)

I don't need a man
I don't need a man

My Technical Glitch

Sorry, people. There was some sort of technical glitch and now I have to re-do my blog template. So there's no tagboard. If you are in desperate need to tell me something, just comment! Thanks!

Can't wait after O Levels!

My Preliminary Post - E Maths P1 + Biology

E Maths P1
Well, had sufficient time. I'm writing faster! Yay for me! Couldn't do 3 questions. I hope I get A1 for E Maths!

Biology
Section A was OK. Section B was OK. Section C was difficult! They asked questions like "What is the similarities between lungs and an absorbing surface?" Huh?


There's this stupid song which is stuck in my head! Yes, it's called Showstopper by Danity Kane. Don't ever listen to it! It's the most annoying tune ever! Even if you hate it, it will haunt you. They're like a cheap version of Pussycat Dolls. Seriously, like step Spice Girls.

There was this really crazy girl next to my block. She sounded like Charlene. Then, she was laughing like some maniac on Subutex. Then, this mat shouted from the void deck and said, "SHUT UP LAH! OR ELSE I CALL POLICE!" The laughing didn't stop, so it made me laugh. It's so funny to listen to a crazy old lady laughing.

I cannot focus if something is on my mind. That's my problem. What's yours?

Get Up - Ciara feat. Chamillionaire

You said, "Hi, my name is so-and-so,
baby, can you tell me yours?" You look like you came to do one thing;
set it off! I started on the left, then I had to take him to the right.
He was out of breath, but he kept on dancin' all night.
Keep tryin, oh baby, but you just can't break the feelin' inside.
You know it, and I can see it in your eyes! You want me,
smooth as a motha*. You was so undercover, by the way that you was watchin' me.

[Chorus]
Ooh, the way you look at me I'm feelin' you.
I just can't help it, tryna keep it cool. I can feel it in the beat,
when you do those thangs to me, don't let nothin' stop you. Mo-o-ove,
ring the alarm, the clock is jumpin', now. So get up!

I said, "Ciara's on your radio,
everybody turn it up!" Spicy just like hot sauce.
Careful, you might burn it up. You can do the poplock,
ragtime, don't stop. That's the way you gotta get it to make ya body rock.
Keep tryin, and maybe, but you just can't break the feelin' inside.
You know it, 'cause I can see it in your eyes! You want me, smooth as a motha*.
You was so undercover, by the way that you was watchin' me.

[Chorus]
Ooh, I love the way your vibin' me, dance for me, forever.
We can have a good time, follow me to the beach, together. You and me,
one on one, breakin' it down. You can walk away, now. (Oh-oh-oh)
They 'bout to turn this place out. Ooh, ooh!

It's the kids, they ridin' big;
the one police try to catch ridin' dirty. In the club,
before eleven o'clock, like I'm tryna catch a dime kinda early.
Lookin' thick, her hair brown and curly, she love the way my ride shinin' pearly.
City boys say she fine and pretty, and the country boys say she fine and purty.
Mom and pops think it's green as curry, and the ladies know soon as they see my
jewerly. If bein' fresh to death is a crime, I think it's tme I see a jury.
You know, Chamillionare stay on the grind, a hustler like me is hard to find.
I ain't really impressed, yes, unless it's about some dollar sign.
Really no need to call ya fine, I know you be hearin' that all the time.
Watchin' ya do ya step, do ya step, yes, it's goin' down.

[Chorus]

I got to have ya, baby. I feel it, I feel it,
I got to have ya baby! Uh-uh, I got to have ya baby.

My Preliminary Post - Chemistry Practical + Social Studies + Elec. Geog

It's week one in the three weeks of hell!

Chemistry
Urgh! I've always been an okay Chemistry student. I don't break things, don't have the misfortunes of defective apparatus, so why did my bloody burette leak in the midst of titration?!!!! Seriously, and we had to titrate something with potassium manganate which is purple in colour. I wanted to ask for a new one but then Veronica Chia told me to just tilt it or something like that. In the end, I did 5 titrations! 5! It's like, a personal record! And I misread "anion" as "cation" and I wrote down "reducing agent" instead of "oxidising agent" and I couldn't finish the extension question. 8 marks gone!

Social Studies
This was OK. Finally I could finish the paper! Yay for me! Well, I made one of the essays seem like an English essay.

Elec. Geog
Couldn't finish this one!!! Boo! Didn't understand what one of the questions was talking about. I'm so gonna screw this one up! I'm so scared I didn't write enough points! Bye, first three months of MJC.

Anyway, I have discovered the magical powers of coffee! Yes! I have become a coffee addict! My mother told me about this girl she knew in secondary school who was really smart, but then she over-exerted herself and in the end, she couldn't think properly and failed the exam. Way to motivate a person! But then this morning my mother told me that it's "only the Prelims".

I'm cured!

I Still Believe - Mariah Carey

You look in my eyes and I get emotional inside
I know it's crazy but you still can touch my heart
And after all this time you'd think that I,
I wouldn't feel the same but time melts into nothing and nothing's changed

[Chorus]
I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
I had a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again

Each day of my life
I'm filled with all the joy I could find
You know that I
I'm not the desperate type
If there's one spark of hope
Left in my grasp, I'll hold it with both hands
It's worth the risk of burning
To have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, no
I need you baby
I still believe that we can be together
If we believe that true love
never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again

[Chorus]

My 281th Post

I seriously can't think of any other entry title.

That was embarrassing. You can now stop pretending that you don't read my blog.

Anyway, today there were 2 (two)(TWO!)(TWO!!!!!!) chee ko peks in a bus. Ok, I've drawn out a picture to explain.

So, I was in Bus 3. It's a picture of a bus (Duh!) There were only these people and this other woman sitting in front. So, the girls who are in their 20s are like, talking non-stop about stuff and they are totally unaware about these two Chee Ko Peks in their 40s. Seriously! The guy in front of me was looking back at them and I saw that his eyes were like, looking up and down! OMG he's visually raping them! Then the other guy on the right side put his arm around the back of his seat like how men grope women in the cinema. Get it? Ok, then he kept on looking back at the girls! The girls were still unaware. I felt sorry for them. OMG you should have seen the guy-in-the-front's face when he alighted. It read "RAPIST"!

Shouldn't have gone to school. We were told to self-study.

My Insanity

OH MY GOD I'm going insane! You can't imagine how insane I was last night. Ok, so my house is really messy and everything's everywhere. People in the house don't bother to throw away junk (the NDP handphone torch is still beside the telephone). I couldn't throw away stuff because I was scared that someone needed them. So last night at around 10, I had this major blowout and cleared the table in front of the TV which was full of brochures, vouchers and letters and totally went nuts and threw the unwanted things away and neated things up. Then I went to the dining table because that evening, my mother went to NTUC and didn't pack her things up, so there were food items still inside plastic bags and I was unpacking the food items. Then, my mother came along and somehow screamed at me. Well, I forgot what she said, but I remembered saying back, "You can't scold me for cleaning the house!"

I mean, that was crazy. Literally, that was nuts! Then after I cooled down a bit and finished with my manic cleaning, my mother said something that I forgot and I said, "You shouted at me, so you scolded me lah!" then she said, "What's wrong with you?" then I said, "Fine lah! I'm crazy!" I hope she realises that that may be true and that I'm not joking.

Urgh! To think that I made fun of the girls who cried when Paul was gone. Couldn't sleep for an hour last night, so I just lied on my bed for an hour and thought about stuff. Sigh. My life is so messed up. I'm on the verge of losing my mind. Of course my friends wouldn't notice me. I have learnt to hide my feelings. I wish there was somebody who would ask me, "Hey, everything all right?" and I tell them, "No" and tell them all about my troubles.

Excuse me, I think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself

So lonely.

My 279th Post

Yay! Jasmine's still in! OMG I was so scared stupid girls would vote for the guys. Not that the guys aren't talented. Paul's gone! It's entertaining to see the girls crying madly, like seriously, I was laughing! And Paul cried, so I kind of stopped laughing because I would be scolded by my mother for being "rude and insensitive to other people's feelings", but she can make snappy comments about the President. Surprisingly, my mother didn't cry for Paul, but last week cried for Joakim. I think she secretly likes Joakim.

Anyway, who's that idiot posing as me on my tagboard? I will never ever like Joakim! I find him obnoxiously obnoxious. I'd rather listen to heavy metal for a day rather than Joakim for a minute!

IMF!!!! Yay!!! Now everytime I see a Caucasian, I act like, "Hi, welcome to Singapore!". Well, I don't really say it out loud, I just try not to look like a serial killer. My uncle said that all the Presidents of the world would be coming to Singapore, including the all-mighty ruler-of-the-world, George W. Bush! Hooray! I keep on wondering if Singapore has enough room for the IMF people.

My Booster

Had Motivational Booster today. Well, I shan't say that I feel motivated. I dunno...

On a lighter note, Singapore Idol yesterday totally sucked. There were a lot of mistakes. Stupid hosts Gurmit and Daniel. They're like, so annoying when they stand next to each other. They're like, you know annoying little cousins that just won't stop bugging you. Ok, whatever.

Anyway, I VOTED FOR JASMINE!!!! Yes! First time I voted. I didn't tell my mother. She'll flip if I told her I voted for her, let alone voted and "wasted 60 cents". I mean, she totally won my heart yesterday when she told us that she would like to meet Mariah Carey because "she's a fantastic and phenomenal (sp., I can't spell properly!!! My English is going haywire!) singer". And she sang a song by Jewel! And she sang really nicely. Which told me that I must vote for her. Now I hate Paul and Jonathan. I hope either one goes. Paul has too much personality and Jonathan is so bloody boring.

Today I saw triplets in a bus!!! Yes! Well, they're triplet boys aged like, 4, and they were like, wearing the same polo tee except different colours. And their mother is like eight months pregnant and her water's about to burst any second. I wonder if she'll turn insane soon.

This song is stuck in my head!!! It's called Butterfly by Mariah Carey.

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you shall return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

My Lazy-Ass Holiday

I totally hate the September holidays. I kind of wish that we have lessons. I have not really been studying. Just did some TYS MCQs because I would only have to circle. I'm soooo lazy!!!! Urgh!! I'm somehow suddenly in love with Pon De Replay. I love how Rihanna sounds a bit drunk. And did you know that she's 18! OMG she deserves a Grammy or something. I suddenly have a craze over Bubble Tea and I've been buying it everyday. Plus it's very cheap! Only $1.20! OMG! Remember how Bubble Tea was like, so popular and it costed $2.50! What a rip-off! But then we still kept on buying them. Well, I wasn't really into Bubble Tea back then. Oh and remember the stamp card where you get a free Bubble Tea if you buy 10 Bubble Teas? Oh good times. So anyway, yesterday I wanted try to shake off my laziness and ride my bike to White Sands, but then I found out that my bike seat had this piece of metal protruding out under the leather seat. It was like a freak accident waiting to happen, so I just had to take the stupid bus. I currently hate Yoghurt Bubble Tea. It's totally disgusting, because..... they add condensed milk! I mean, I'm not really allergic to condensed milk, but it's so so artificial! Hello, that's not Yoghurt Bubble Tea, that's Condensed Milk Bubble Tea! And some Bubble Tea aunties have short-term memory loss. I tell them "no pearls" and a minute later, there's like, giant tadpole eggs at the bottom. After eating the pearls, I'm suddenly in love with them. I used to hate pearls because they're made from tapioca. Tapioca! Did you know that they're poisonous unless you cook them properly.

This morning I cooked Instant Noodles and currently, I officially hate instant noodles. Apparently, there wasn't enough seasoning, so I was eating "dry" moist noodles which was so icky. I was eating the revolting noodles while watching this cooking show, you know the famous British guy. I forgot his name. He cooked this dish called pineapple curry and it looked so delicious. I wish my mother would watch that show and think, "Wow! I might give it a try!"

Goodbye Alice In Wonderland - Jewel

It's four in the afternoon
I'm on a flight leaving L.A.
Trying to think about my life
My youth scattered along the highway

Hotel rooms and headlines
I've made a living with a song
Just a guitar as my companion
Wanting desperately to belong

Fame is filled with spoiled children
They grow fat on fantasy
I guess that's why I'm leaving
I crave reality

[Chorus]
So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
I did not find paradise
It was only a reflection of my lonely mind searching
For what was missing in my life

I'm embarassed to say the rest is a rock and roll cliche
I hit the bottom when I reached the top
I never knew it was you who was breaking my heart
I thought you had to love me
You did not

Yes a heart can hallucinate
If it's completely starved for love
Can even make monsters seem like
Angels from above

You forged my love like a weapon
And turned it against me like a knife
You broke my last heartstring
But you opened up my eyes

[Chorus]

Dreaming is a good thing cause it brings new things to life
Pretending is an ending that perpetuates a lie
Forgetting what you are
Seeing for what you've been told
And growing up is not the absence of dreaming
It's being able to understand the difference between the ones you can hold
And the ones that you've been sold

Well, truth is stranger than fiction
And this is my chance to get it right
Life is much better without all of your pretty lies

[Chorus]

My Bipolarism

I really think I'm suffering from some mental illness. Maybe bipolarism. Yesterday in the evening I was all happy and cheerful, then later at around 11, I got all angry and stuff and told off everybody in the house. Like, I scolded my brother for playing the Music Player too loudly. I'm crazy!! Fuck, nobody cares.

On a lighter note, last night I dreamt of something weird. Ya, I somehow keep remembering my dreams. Anyway, I dreamt that the Joakim supporters signed a petition to Singapore Idol to reveal the voting numbers. So, when the voting numbers were revealed, Jasmine actually had the lowest number of votes! Dun dun dun!!!! Ya, actually Singapore Idol wanted Joakim out. This was like the Mathilda and Nurul thing. Haha. I hope this dream comes true. Wouldn't that be cool, like even MORE controversy?!

I'm in love with the song "Again and Again" by Jewel! Seriously, when I first heard it, I found it quite boring, but if you listen to it about 3 times, you'll love it! Trust me! Like, I heard her other songs from the album (don't ask me how I got it) and they're quite nice! I've matured in a sense that I like folk/country songs. Ya, ok whatever. Maybe it's just my bipolarism.

I feel so _______________.

:(

Again And Again - Jewel

Listen dear
I need you to hear.
I cannot disappear
I've tried again and again and again.

I know we said
That we'd give up
You said we'd had enough
Again and again and again.

[Bridge]
But you, you're always on my mind.
It's like this all the time.
Say it's cause you're mine
All mine...

[Chorus]
And if you will, I will
Try to let it go.
And if you try, I'll try
Try to let it show us the way
'Cause love is here to stay
Just look me in the eye
This is do or die
And I will stay in love
'Till you say enough
There is no giving in
There is no giving up in love.

Walk down the street
Stare at lots of things
The fast and steady streams
Again and again and again.

Do what I should
Try to stay busy
Your face is all I see
Again and again and again.

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

Like a movie I once saw
In the darkness I recall
Feeling the beauty and the pain
And when you call my name
Say you feel the same.

Cause' if you will, I will
Try to let it go
And if you try, I'll try
Try to let it show.

[Chorus]

I cannot disappear...
I've tried again and again and again...

My Teacher's Day

Ahh! So many things to blog about! Firstly, TEACHER'S DAY!!! So I woke up at 5.20 and wanted to sleep for only 10 minutes but I ended up waking up at 6.30. So I had to take a cab and OMG the taxi drivers here suck ass! I wanted to take a cab before 7 so that I won't have to pay extra. After much waving, I got a cab at 7 hours and 10 seconds (according to the taxi computer thingy). Stupid lah! Anyway, didn't get to see the President who came to our school. Actually I wanted to see the President, but 4R and 4N were confined to the AVT. The scene at the AVT was like the scene before the runway show at Project Runway. Haha. Coloured our hair orange and green, even when I was supposed to be Mr Yong. Anyway, the performance rocks!!!! Everyone was laughing at what I said, which was weird because I thought they wouldn't laugh. Or maybe they were laughing at me!! Dun dun dun!!!! Ok, whatever. Had to change in 30 seconds. Dance. Yay! Ahhhh!! OMG It was so fucking awesome! I LOVE 4R! Then after that went to Parkway with Adam, Nani and Nazurah to eat at BK while still having coloured hair. Then, had to walk home from the White Sands Primary bus stop with my coloured hair! Thank goodness nobody was at home when I came home.

Well, Singapore Idol surely has raised much controversy. JOAKIM'S GONE! Yay! I'm so happy! Well, actually I wanted Paul to go first so that there would be even more controversy! Anyway, during Joakim's farewell video, he said, "Thanks, judges for seeing something in me." Then I made a snappy comment and said, "Well, I didn't!" and my mother suddenly scolded me for making snappy comments because I quote from my mother: "He's only 18 and he can handle the pressure and the controversy." Ya, sure. My mother can make snappy comments about the President and I can't make snappy comments to an 18-year-old whose only fans are teenage girls? Then, my mother cried! MY MOTHER CRIED!!!! What the hell is wrong with this world that we live in? My mother totally hated Joakim because he can't sing a note, and now my mother's sad that he's leaving? Is she possessed by a deaf teenage girl, just like those who cried like hell when Joakim and Paul were in the bottom 2? Haha, it seriously makes good television. Anyway, my mother kept on blabbering on how Joakim is a nice boy and stuff. Are you sure? I mean, from the time he sang the Geek In The Pink (with that ugly pink sweater), I found him to be quite obnoxious, like "look-at-me-I'm-so-popular-and-cute-that-girls-wanna-vote-for-me-even-though-I-can't-sing"! And he dances in a singing competition!!! What the hell lah!

Anyway, I had a dream which I still can vividly recall. Well, firstly, I was at 7-11 because I won a prize. The prize was a jigsaw puzzle. Ya, then I went to HMV and bought.... Jewel's Goodbye Alice In Wonderland. Apparently, I have the album on my computer. Don't ask me how I got it. Then, I was browsing through some albums and I saw this non-existant-in-real-life Mariah Carey album called "Don't Let Nobody" or something like that. Kind of weird because the picture was like, a black and white picture of a younger Mariah. And I opened the CD and I remember I saw a song called "Birthday". Hmm... Could this be a sign? Ya, that's when I woke up.