I'm too emotionally shattered. Seriously! I think I'm not going to do well for my Malay. Maybe C5-C6. But there's a high chance that I get a B. I just want a distinction! I'm so sad. My orals were today. Nerves got me. This is what I did that might have caused the penalisation of my marks.
- Read passage too quickly, causing me to stop a couple of times when I'm not supposed to stop.
- One of the invigilators was a bitch. Seriously, she totally looked pissed. Well, the other was motherly and nice.
- Stupid oral conversation question: What was a book that left a mark on you? I didn't want to be cliche so I said Adrian Mole. I don't read much books, you know. I said that he and I are a little similar because we have problems. Hope she gets the hint that I was a nervous wreck!
- Stupidly said Bahasa Sains (meaning 'science language'). But then made my mistake and apologized. That was the only part where the bitch smiled/laughed.
- Didn't think before the conversation, like what Cikgu Nora said. Just blabbered on without thinking.
I hope my life isn't affected by the oral exams. It's so stupid how I was brimming with confidence because I could actually speak quite well about the pros/cons about internet and about our traditional cultures.
I need to speak with the counsellor, the Ms Rajah lookalike. How do I contact her? I shall tell her all my problems. I'm sure she could help me. She is a proffesional, right? Like, a psychologist or something. I hope so.