WTF lah! My mother wants me to quit when school reopens! I mean, she should've told me that two week ago before I even decided to go back to work!! Seriously, she puts words in my mouth and blames me on everything! Apparently, my brothers are such perfect creations. And I'm like the black sheep of the family. I'd already told her that when school reopens I'd probably be working maybe like, 3 times a week and see how it goes. And she's like, "Fine." And I recently found out that school starts next week and she's like, "How come all this while when I ask you when does school start you say 'I don't know'?" And I'm like, it's because I really didn't know! I freaking told her that it's at the end of this month. And now she's saying that my two brothers are so perfect and how they are doing so well in their lives.
I seriously want to like, scream and break down. Why the fuck do I want to go back to work????!!!! I don't get any pocket money during the holidays!!! When I go out, my mother gives me money!!! Then when we get into an argument, she'll give me an excuse that she's always giving me money when I need it!!! And then she makes me feel guilty!! And seriously, that makes me feel like I'm a freaking financial burden in the family!!! Seriously, it's so fucking unfair! So guess what? I decided to maybe make a little money!!!
And then she went on about how I think that she's a bad mother. Read: Put words in my mouth. Honestly, sometimes I think that I'm not worthy of being her son. Whatever. Everytime I do something, they always make an excuse. Just listen.
Urrggh! I'm just a fucked up person.